Sitting alone frightens me,
Remembering my faults is the horror I see.
Fondling with the trust you once had for me,
As I craved something not meant to be.
That day, ever fresh in my mind,
That night, not a mystery to find.
I broke something we both struggled to build,
I destroyed what no one could have killed.
The disgust, the mistrust, the hatred,
The anger, the fear you unwillingly tasted.
The recompense I decided, not good enough,
The pain I fought whilst trying to be tough.
What more is there to say to you?
We were like twins; yes, me and you.
My heart burns as I consider what I let go,
May not have been perfect, but we enjoyed the show.
Now I’m here drowning in thoughts, I’m writing.
With nothing to do, we would have been play fighting.
We met in an environment you would soon leave,
Oh, what on earth I wouldn’t give,
To take that night, that bloody night back,
Then our friendship would never have suffered slack.
Thank you for protecting my image.
A thing others would have destroyed in rage.
Ever deep within me, as I once let you see,
The screams of an honest heart that doesn’t lie,
I love you much to just say ‘bye’.
Experiences of journeying humans 